Post Number TROIS

I feel shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit shit *takes breathe* shit shit shit shit shit .. you get the point although no one reads this crap.

What does life have to be so damn annoying sometimes, what is the point of life? Its not like it leads to anything, your born, you live, you die, you rot in the ground and people forget about you. There is no heaven, is no afterlife - theres nothing beyond this piece of shit.

Post Number TUH

YO YO YO INTELLECTUAL G's! :] Or in human - Hey! Although I doubt anyone will read this so I am probably saying hey to myself as I sit here typing this - ahhh well! Rather boring day as usual, bored bored bored bored < that is what is running through my head on constant repeat -.- .. OMG! im in love with this AMAZING! girl - who I shall not name here but she knows who she is :D .. Noww .. I wonder what I shall do to keep myself preoccupied from life, Yahoo! Answers is becoming rather tedious in all honesty, the same repetetive click answer click answer every single day of this god forsaken life *sigh* ... I feel so depressed lately but eh, putting a brave face on things makes other people think I'm happy and if I can make other people happy by being happy myself, instead of making them worry or be down then its worth the act :D. Anywhoo .. just reading through a book of poetry right now, this book is at the very LEAST 98 years old .. it says 1914 on the inside cover in pencil but it may be older .. my grandfather give it too me :D I LOVE it! its got some amazingly cute and sweet poems in here .. so I shall end this blog with my fav. poem from the book ..


I Dare Not Scorn.

I MAY not scorn the meanest thing
That on the Earth doth crawl;
The slave who dares not burst his chain,
The tyrant in his hall,

The vile oppressor, who hath made
The Widow'd mother mourn,
Though, worthless, he before me stand --
I cannot, dare not scorn.

The darkest night that shrouds the sky,
Of beauty hath a share;
The blackest hearth hath signs to tell
That good still lingers there.

I pity all that evil are --
I pity, and I mourn;
But the Supreme hath fashion'd all,
And, Oh! I dare not scourn.

- Nicol.

Post number WUN

Woo! Wee! Well I guess this is my first ever post up to teh Blogger .. having never used a Blog before I'm not really sure what this is all about - if it's about anything? *Questions* and that leads me straight onto questioning why I'm even on this site in the first place - I guess it's just good to have a 'release', something I can do to take my mind of things when I'm feeling down, bored or lonely ^_^ *Asian Smileeeey*. Well I'm from England as I write this first 'blog' or bloggy or bloggity or whatever you call the posts on a blog website and it's just turned 04:20 AM ... Waaay past how long I should be awake for ... but staying up this late and later has become the norm' recently - ah well *sigh* - I'll catch up on sleep through the day, I'm more of a night person anyhow. Nights are always so much cooler, calmer and a hell of a lot more peaceful - especially when going for a walk :D. Shame I can't go for a walk on my damned own during the day though ¬.¬ Having tried to commit suicide 3 times in the past - I'm being monitored for 6 months by my parents - stupid stupid parents don't realise I can still sneak out at night muwhahaha :D. Luckily I only have to put up with that crap for another *checks date today* another 8 ish days :D. Then I am a free man. Sooo anyhow .. life is boring as usual, just on my addiction right now that goes by teh name of "Yahoo! Answers", pretty boring crap on their as usual, answering quetions repetetivly and asking those that tick over in this crazy lil' brain of mine.

Anyhow - I know this isn't much if you're reading this, if anyone is reading this?! I don't know why you would but if you are ... you crazy foo' ;). I shall be off to sleep now but will post new shiz' up later today and in future as this may be my new place to 'vent' and distract myself from the daily routine of this curse known as life.

Peace out breder'ins.


EDIT: Are you bein' effin serious?! Your not allowed ! . : or other shiz in the post label?!